July 22, 2005
OMG so annoying...
It's like 100 degress outside, okay not really but it feels like it. The AC at the store is dying. My new manager Rob is a total flake who only thinks about sales and forgets that we can't sell it if it's not on the shelf. Oh and someone on my floor smoked weed for like three hours!
Okay maybe not that long but because it's so hot and sticky the smell stayed in the building forever! Tomorrow after I do laundry I'm totally going to buy insense. Sue is getting me a burner for my b-day woohoo!
I have totally decided that I can't buy a sidekick II even though everyone that walks buy me seems to have one. My monthly expenses are just too high right now. It's okay though. I figure if I really really still want one in Feb. when my cell phone contract is up then I'll get one. It would be awesome to have one. But I really don't need it.
Jen and I were suppose to hang out this weekend, actually she was suppose to call me last night. But neither thing happened. I don't think she and I are really gonna hang this weekend either. I'm feeling way lazy. I really just need sleep. Maybe some liquor. Of course I say that I won't go out drinking with her but we all know that come tomorrow night she'll call and be like, wanna go to Kinsel? Ugh! I hate that place. The food there is totally expensive and well the only reason we go is cause she likes some of the waiters there.
I'm totally freaking about the stuff going on in London though. I so was going to go to London this summer. Now I'm super happy I couldn't afford it. Better to be alive with a laptop, okay I know that sounds really cold but really, it is! Still though It's freaking me out because like six hours before the second bombings happened I was looking out my bathroom window thinking I really want to move out of the city cause if terrorists attacked my apartment so wouldn't be left standing!
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July 12, 2005
I spend way too much money!!!
So I have tracked my expenses for the last three days and I spend way too much money! Since Monday I have spent $67.76 USD! I really can't believe it. I had no idea! I am not spending any money on food tomorrow. Well I think I have to spend a little because I'm trying this new diet and while I have Banana's I didn't buy the shakes that I was going to buy tonight because I didn't want to have to carry them home. Which means I'm going to have to get up super early tomorrow to go get them. They are having a really great sale at Target.
Boy, am I glad that I didn't get that Sidekick yet. I'm totally waiting at least a month.
In said news my last remaining gerbil, Gigi, lost her top two front teeth so I don't know what I'm going to do. I trimmed the buttom ones so that she would stop cutting her gums on them but I don't know how long she has been without food or anything because I kept putting food in and I thought she was eating it. I went out today and bought her some gerbil pellets and a morter so that I could grind them. I have made three different dishes for her. One that is just baby food, chicken and veggies, one that is a mix of the baby food and the pellets, and one that is just pellets and water. So she has three food dishes now. I'm hoping that this will encourage her to eat.
You know the worst thing is that I really need to get my eyebrows waxed! I was going to go today but now I think I'm gonna have to wait till Saturday. I better call tomorrow and make an appointment.
Well that's it for now!
TTYL!
Laterz!
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July 9, 2005
blah blah blah....
I wrote in my journal again today. I like it but I was so tired that I mostly just slept on the train today. Plus Vincent called on the way home so I didn't have any writing time then.
I still really want the Sidekick. I went to T-mobile and the girl there was very nice and said that I could totally port my number after my cingular contract was done. I'm not sure what I'm gonna do though.
I kind of want to sign up for the data plan for the Sidekick and then switch later because even though with the pay as you go I won't be paying the activation fee I'll have to pay it later for the post-paid plan.
So now I have to go back again and find out about that. I'm still not a 100% sure I want it though. Now that I'll be going back to the Boston store I'll be much closer to my home and I'll won't be able to use the internet there at all because there is always something to do there. Seriously. It's so busy durning the day that you don't have any downtime until the evening and then you have to work on shipment because it's all over the place.
I think the best thing is to wait until after I'm there a week or two and see how things go because what if I get the thing and don't use it?
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July 8, 2005
Day of the Shoppe Girl
Below you will find an entry from my paper journal which I started today to help me keep better track of what is going on in my crazy life!
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So my online therapist says that while it’s great that I have a blog, or journal, where I talk about myself in the first person that I tend to go weeks and sometimes months without updating it and that she has serious doubts that I just spend that time locked up in my room sleeping and not doing anything. So she told me since my old boss at the art gallery gave me this book that I should use it. I would like to point out that I have another journal too! But because that is a childhood or rather teenage journal where I was still busy and very learned in the art of hiding my emotions even from myself, that while the book is probably only 20 pages full I should close it and start this one. Okay I don’t really have an online therapist. I wish that I had one though. I know they are probably out there somewhere but I saw a news report one time about how you could totally be conned out of your money that way. I am sure it is true and I really should get a therapist but right now I’m kind of low on funds. Which brings me to the real reason for this book. I do have a blog, a very nice one actually. But sometimes I sit in front of the computer and I have no idea what to type and since I am not online all the time I need some way to record my thoughts so I can later put them online or rather on my blog. True I have a PDA, which I love very much but I hate the pecking, well it’s really more like poking at the right part of the screen. I can’t really do the graffiti on it and I mostly use it for keeping everyone’s phone number and my appointments straight. So writing it is. Until I can get a BlackBerry or Sidekick and figure out how to update via email. If I get a Sidekick I’ll have net access so that would be easy to update with but we’ll see what my funds allow.
Vincent called me earlier. He left a message because I didn’t pick up, but really what did he expect? We got the cell phones for a reason! So he wouldn’t have to call me from pay phones! Sometimes I wonder about him. Oh well he told me to pick up the next time even if I didn’t know the number. I’ll try, if he calls that is, he hasn’t yet!
My old therapist has told me that it was good for me to write down my thoughts and events of my day because I have this nasty habit of thinking of myself in the third person. Who does that? Well she told me that people like me, who have been traumatized with sexual abuse and rape and even some people who have been adopted start to try to disassociate themselves from their lives because they don’t want to own their trauma or feel like they don’t deserve the life that ahs been given to them through the adoption. So sometimes they think in the third person but that’s okay because it’s just their own mental defense trying to protect them and get them through the day. She then said that if I start to keep a journal even on a weekly basis it would help me to see that it was okay to own my life because I survived my rape and sexual abuse and because my adoption was a gift that no one can take away from me. That even if I didn’t talk about either thing in my journal it was okay because it would just be a tool for self-affirmation.
So that’s where I am and why I’m trying to scribble this down so I can later type it up for my blog. I really really want that BlackBerry or the SideKick. I’m not picky, I’ll take either. I do have to find out if I can go from a prepaid to a real plan. I’m not ready to try to cancel my Cingular phone plan but I do like my number so I have to make sure that I can keep that too. Right now I have birthday funds that I can use to get the SideKick which I think is slight beter than the BlackBerry because some of the new BlackBerrys don’t have real mini-keyboards and the SideKicks do.
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I wrote a lot more in my journal but I’m starting to fall asleep so I think that tomorrow I’ll finish up this entry. I just wanted to get some of it up before I went to bed.
TTYL!
Laterz!
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July 6, 2005
My Birthday....
So now I'm a officially 24 years old. How depressing is that! Just kidding. So far I see no difference between 24 and 23, none at all. Oh well. That's life.
On my birthday I got to have lunch with my family because most of them were all still in CT since we had a party the day before. It was nice. We had lobster, which is one of my favorite shell fish. Then they gave me carrot cake, again one of my favorites. I don't know why I like carrot cake for a birthday cake, most people don't. I guess I'm just silly.
Anyway now it's July, it's not really hot here, yet. It was very hot durning June which was old, but now that it's July I'm starting to need to wear long pants again, odd.
Most of my friends called me on my birthday, which was nice of them, but I left my charger in CT so I felt bad because I wouldn't answer the phone. I needed to hold off until I could get a charger. They left messages though.
Let's see. I might be moved back to the Boston store, if I'm not I'm handing in my two weeks notice. I refuse to keep going out to Braintree. It's seriously cramping on my cash flow. It costs me more to go out there than I earn, evil.
Morty is up now. I better go play with him. He loves to go out in the city and I'm trying to find him a bag that I can carry him in. Now that it's summer it's too hot for him in my purse. I need something that he can stick his little head out of but not the rest of his body. Which is pretty hard to find since from everything I've read it says that if a ferret can stick their head out then can get their whole body out. Oh well!
TTYl!
Laterz!
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